Random and Exhausted Thoughts from the OR Waiting Room…


It’s been a long day. 

And it’s only 1:16pm. 

I didn’t go to work today. The kids didn’t go to school.

Instead we woke up before the sun and made our way to the hospital for scheduled surgery for the Mr. 

Nerves, anxiety, prayers and nurses occupied the beginning of the morning. Then we have our hugs and kisses and journeyed to the waiting room to wait. And wait. And wait some more. 

Coffee. 

Diet Coke.

More coffee. 

Words with Friends. 

Read a book. 

Attempt to sleep. 

Listen to random conversations about politics and medical issues. Would it be wierd to interject my opinion into a strangers conversation? (Of course that would require that I people, and I don’t people!)

More Words with Friends. 

All while repeatedly checking the door- waiting to see the surgeon come through and give us the thumbs up. 

It’s been 7 hours since arrival. 

Recovery room should happen soon. 

I’m longing to squeeze his neck and kiss his face. 

E&N have been rockstars. 

They should make waiting rooms more comfortable. A soft, warm blanket would be amazing. 

There is free coffee. But it tastes like free coffee. I’d love a hot cup of fresh coffee.

New Year – Just BE

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2018. A new year is upon us. Time to make resolutions and promises. I once again made the cliche resolution – to eat healthy, less junk food and more vegetables; but here I sit on January 2nd, digesting french fries, garlic bread, and chocolate – I did opt for zoodles (zucchini noodles) with my spaghetti over pasta, so there’s that. Luckily I made more than just one resolution, I can’t stand to fail and I already have one mark against me.

In 2018, I want to BE.

BE happy.

BE patient.

BE present.

2017 wasn’t an unhappy year in particular, but I didn’t take the time to enjoy happiness. I smiled, I laughed, I had fun but I also looked ahead…never fully enjoying the moments and I want to change that. I want to feel happiness, from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. I want to see, smell, taste, and hear happiness; taking time to stop and smell the happiness. I plan to BE happy.

Patience is a virtue. I have patience at work, I have patience with my students. I have little patience at home; the Mister and E&N seem to get the short stick, the frazzled Mom/Wife at the end of her rope. I want to BE patient in all areas of my life, but especially at home with the ones who matter most; they deserve the best of me. I know I’m not perfect, I sometimes the frazzled, crazy Mom and Wife will show up – but she should be just a visitor, not the persona who stays around all the time. My family loves me, in spite of all my imperfections and quirks – they deserve my patience.

I’m here. I’m with my family. I’m with my friends. But I’m not really here. I’m precoccupied, distracted by my phone, a book, or random thoughts in my mind. I want to truly BE present. I can’t have this time back; E&N are growing up, family members are growing older – these are the times to cherish. Less screen time – more face to face conversations, more real interactions, more authentic experiences.

I will also BE healthy – because I deserve that, for me. I’ll eat my veggies and moderate my pasta consumption; I’ll exercise and drink more water. Because when I am healthy, I am happier. And when I am happier and I have more patience. And with patience and happiness, I will be present.

Cheers to a happy, patient, present, and healthy NEW YEAR.

2018 – I’m ready for you!

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XoXo

Rebecca

These are a few of my favorite things…

🎶 When the dog bites

When the bee stings

When I’m feeling sad

I simply remember my favorite things

And then I don’t so bad 🎶
Are you singing along yet? The Sound of Music soundtrack was E’s choice of tunes last week- and I’ve been singing along ever since. My favorite things may differ from what Maria sings about, but the outcome is the same- when I think about my favs then I don’t feel so bad 🙂 These are a few of my favorite things this week…

  • Hot coffee – morning, noon and night
  • Good morning kisses
  • The sound of my children’s laughter
  • Hearing “I love you Mom”
  • Coffee
  • Cooking an amazing dinner that the whole family loves- tonight was gumbo soup- so good!
  • Holding hands with the mister
  • Sleeping in 
  • Coffee
  • Texts that make me smile
  • Fresh cut grass
  • Snuggles
  • New shoes
  • Coffee

BElieve THEre is GOOD

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” – Romans 12:21

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I am scared.

Scared for the future.

Scared for our world.

Scared for my children.

I want to hide, I want to protect my loved ones. I want peace. I want happiness. I want kindess.

How do we get there? How do we change the world? How do we drive out the hate and evil?

I don’t have the answers. I sat with my family looking into the massive ocean tonight and with tears in my eyes I prayed. I prayed for our future. I prayed for our world. I prayed for my children.

I can pray.

I can be kind.

I can love my neighbors.

I can be the good in the world.

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” – Psalm 56:3

XO

Rebecca

 

Home Sweet Home

12 days ago we drove away from our home- said a prayer and worried that we would have nothing left when we returned. It’s a scary feeling, the unknown. The car was loaded down with the items we can’t replace- wedding album, baby photos, and important documents; everything else was left behind to weather the storm. I forgot to grab my favorite jacket- the most comfy, soft jacket- I worried all week about that silly thing. Devastated that it would be ruined when we finally returned home. The jacket was like a security blanket, one that I wanted and couldn’t have therefore I channeled all my worries and anxiety into that one item. But you know what- I survived, we all survived. And so did the jacket. We came home after a 10 day Hurri-Cation and there it was- safe and warm, waiting for me.


We were lucky. Our house is ok. Our things are ok. We had a fridge/freezer full of rotten food but food can be replaced….and it was the perfect reason to scrub and clean before filling it up again.


Our beautiful hibiscus tree is dead. Very strange how one plant/tree didn’t survive. But flowers can be replaced- a new tree can be planted. 


And that’s it. That’s the extent of our damage. Thoughts and prayers go to all that weren’t so fortunate. It’s been a crazy few weeks in Florida and Hurricane season isn’t over. #FloridaStrong. 

While we hope and pray that the next storm doesn’t head our way, we clean up and move on looking to find our normal once again. Back to school. Back to baseball. Cooking. Cleaning. Homework. 

With a side of Gator football.


We’ll be ok. And I’ll be snuggled up in my favorite jacket – the one that I’ll be sure to pack up the next time a storm blows our way. 

XoXo

12 hours of Irma

12 board games playing 

11 pounds of snack food 

10 personalities clashing 

cell phones charging 

cases of water 

bottles of wine chilling

adults in one house

cars parked out front 

crazy children

tv’s broadcasting

dogs napping 

massive storm

#irma #goawayirma

#hurricaneIrma

I’ve memorized the times of the updates….I’m glued to the Weather Channel and websites all predicting the path and impacts of this storm. I’m safe. I’m terrified. I’m stressed. I’m worried. I’m praying. 

We left our  home- we packed up what we could and drove away; mandatory evacuation. Now we watch and wait. Will our home be ok? Will our “stuff” survive the storm? Will there be flooding? Wind damage? So much uncertainty.

But we are together as a family; pets included. Things can be replaced. People can not. We are with family- we’ve prepped all we can; we’ve prepared a safe room. We continue to wait. We continue to pray. 

Irma is massive. Irma is dangerous. Effects are imminent. Continue to pray for Florida. Be kind to people. Help your neighbors. Show compassion. 

XoXo