2018. A new year is upon us. Time to make resolutions and promises. I once again made the cliche resolution – to eat healthy, less junk food and more vegetables; but here I sit on January 2nd, digesting french fries, garlic bread, and chocolate – I did opt for zoodles (zucchini noodles) with my spaghetti over pasta, so there’s that. Luckily I made more than just one resolution, I can’t stand to fail and I already have one mark against me.
In 2018, I want to BE.
2017 wasn’t an unhappy year in particular, but I didn’t take the time to enjoy happiness. I smiled, I laughed, I had fun but I also looked ahead…never fully enjoying the moments and I want to change that. I want to feel happiness, from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. I want to see, smell, taste, and hear happiness; taking time to stop and smell the happiness. I plan to BE happy.
Patience is a virtue. I have patience at work, I have patience with my students. I have little patience at home; the Mister and E&N seem to get the short stick, the frazzled Mom/Wife at the end of her rope. I want to BE patient in all areas of my life, but especially at home with the ones who matter most; they deserve the best of me. I know I’m not perfect, I sometimes the frazzled, crazy Mom and Wife will show up – but she should be just a visitor, not the persona who stays around all the time. My family loves me, in spite of all my imperfections and quirks – they deserve my patience.
I’m here. I’m with my family. I’m with my friends. But I’m not really here. I’m precoccupied, distracted by my phone, a book, or random thoughts in my mind. I want to truly BE present. I can’t have this time back; E&N are growing up, family members are growing older – these are the times to cherish. Less screen time – more face to face conversations, more real interactions, more authentic experiences.
I will also BE healthy – because I deserve that, for me. I’ll eat my veggies and moderate my pasta consumption; I’ll exercise and drink more water. Because when I am healthy, I am happier. And when I am happier and I have more patience. And with patience and happiness, I will be present.
Cheers to a happy, patient, present, and healthy NEW YEAR.
2018 – I’m ready for you!